still here

I dont know really whats going on. I'm really watching my diet, getting my water in, getting enough sleep but my cardio is suffering. I have such a hard time running even 10 minutes. Very irritating!! I guess I'll have to start taking my inhaler with me from now on. Seems like I'm just gaining weight instead of losing weight. I have to get things rolling in the right direction and SOON!!!

second post for the day...

Got this off of Dana D's blog and played so need to post this here. Lets play!!! :)

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1. As a comment on my blog, leave one memory that you and I had together. It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember!

2. Next, re-post these instructions on your blog and see how many people leave a memory about you. It's actually pretty funny to see the responses. If you leave a memory about me, I'll assume you're playing the game and I'll come to your blog and leave one about you.(unless I already have! ;)
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still plugging away....

OK well I'm still here. I'm quite disappointed at this point because things aren't changing. I'm in week 3 and I've actually gained weight from the start. I lost 4 lbs the first week and gained them back the second PLUS a pound. I'm considering doing the Des Moines half marathon coming up in about 12 weeks, so I need to get to crack-a-lackin' (in Bluepulse Greg's terms) if I'm gonna be ready. I need a shorter term goal than just my wedding...especially since no date is set. I'm so cardiovascularly challenged at the moment though, that even running 2 miles is a chore. I'm working on it though. It's super hard to eat as strict as I used to with having Greg and his son around all the time. I'm trying though....I'm trying.

Yesterday I ran in the AM and struggled, then went for a 25mile bikeride with Greg later in the evening. This morning I got up and walked on the treadmill for 15 minutes and did an UBWO. TOmorrow is cardio again. Eats have been good for the day. Water is a little behind but will catch up here in a minute.

More tomorrow....

OK, well....

I started over. I restarted my challenge on July 7th so today really is Day 13! HA How about that? Things, for the most part, have been going pretty good. I've hit nearly every workout (I actually missed this past Thursday, but will make up for it tomorrow) and nutrition has been good. I guess it hasnt been 100% but for the most part, pretty darned close. I know it's important that the nutrition IS 100% so I'm going to work on that this next week. My goals are quite simple. To fit in my clothes again and to look hot in my wedding dress (no date set on that yet.) I'll get it done, I know it.

It's crazy how our perception is so off. When I was in the best of shape, I still saw myself as fat or that I could be better. Now that I've fallen pretty far out of shape, I think to myself "I just wanna get back to where I was." Well, I'll get there. I know I will. I took new pictures and posted them on Tracker and quite frankly, they are pretty disgusting. However, they will NOT be that way for long. Even though I can't physically tell anything is happening, I know deep inside that it is and I just have to keep plugging along. Gone is the day that 1 week of clean eating and good workouts bring back the quick results. I have to get in there, work even harder than ever for at least 4 weeks before I know things will start changing. But, I will do it. :)

OK, time to hit the gym for some cardio. I'll keep up with this blog this time.