Day 27--I think....

I wrote this on my Challenge Thread on the Blends site, but wanted to put it here also. If you read it there, sorry for the repeat:

Woke up super late today, as its the first Saturday that I didn't have anything planned except workout. So, got up at around 11am (yikes!) and put on my running gear and headed outside. I dont really know how far I went but I just kept going. I think I must have gone 5miles by the time I got home...time was nearly 52 minutes, so I'm sure it was somewhere near 5 miles, as I had to walk and run. I'll drive my car around later to see exactly. I was sweating and tired, and it felt GOOD!!!

I took yesterday basically as a free day. Eating wasn't bad but I ate more than I really wanted to eat. Stepped on the scales today and was down 3 lbs so go figure! I keep looking at myself and really don't see any changes even though I've finally gotten the eating under control again and hitting my workouts well. I'm not giving up, but getting discouraged about 'wasting' the last 4 weeks without any changes. How can I drop 5% in 8 weeks plus, gain muscle in my upper body? It gets discouraging because it's like I have 2 different things to do. I dont want to lose any weight, but still need to lose fat in my thighs and lower abs, but I need to put on some muscle in my shoulders and back so I dont look so small up top. I have listened to so many people as to what to do, I get confused. These are people that have done it, but everyone has done it differently. I dont want to spend another 4 weeks doing it one way, then figure out, that didnt work for me, ya know?

I get my motivation and encouragement from people like Dana--who has overcome so much adversity and is really walking the talk...no matter what! People like Kevin--who had to totally uproot himself and move, give away his family (the puppies he loves so much) start a new job and a new life...and is still going strong! People like Casey and Lori--just continously upbeat and positive and always finding new ways to make themselves better even through some difficult challenges. Kate and Sean--who have 3 beautiful children, all autistic, and just loving life and pushing HARD to make their challenges great! Have you guys seen Scoobysnacks lately?? hubba hubba!! There's Jennifer (dreamcatcher) and Bobby.....there's Jen (1leanmom)...Suz2lose...Janel--who is literally pulling her hair out because of all her commitments and helping her hubby make it through a career change. I could just go on and on! All of these people have had some truly hard HARD times, and they are all doing it. Making every day count. They aren't giving up!!!!

My point of these ramblings: I've had a pretty easy life. Nothing 'bad' has really happened to me. I've not had to overcome anything, I have a really great job (ok so I fell off a treadmill and broke my ass, but that's nothing too terrible.) These people truly are the Champions in all of this and I am proud to call them my friends!! I'm proud to call ALL of you my friends and want all of us to succeed and get to our goals...BFL goals and general life goals. I am reminded of the mantra from my friend Wes Eugene:

"Just for today, I will eat clean. Just for today, I will work out. Just for today! Just for today, be a perfect Body-for-Lifer! Just for today, be an “A” student in Bill Phillip’s class!"

OK, so enough of all of this. I'll update totals later....